Two days One week went fast after s great storm.I love my husband and family a lot GOD has to help me.PLs GOD help me

Silence

Enjoying the Silence in morning evening and all times.A thoughtless mind is so calm.........Peaceful and happy........
Praying to GOD that it continues...........Daily Chanting list of things I must not do..........

Enlightment

Last week after a long time again had a bad time.It was again after a year.........Same condition happened to me.But this time no on ewas there to help me my parents grandma no one.Th eonly person who helped me is me myself.For many years may be dont know from Childhood...I stared at others both men and women.......Stared at Windows of other houses ,listened to other talks...........................
Dont know how I developed the habbit..........
God is great .Even I did this much mistake GOD has given me wonderful family parents ,Husband and kid.Now I practice silence.My life is example to the world.........To all people...........I know if any one comes to the house normally people will be happy.If I go to any plae they wont like it.
Now I realise myself.I have wasted 30 solid years without knowing me...........Many times got help from others and just left them then and there.Now I feel guilty...
On ething is sure if we say to ourself what we have to do and must not do to ourself we an overcome proble.There are lot of things in the life I have wasted it by spending in unwanted things.Thinking about others etc.......
I am popular in World now..........PLs My advice to all is pls love yourself.There is a beautiful you in you......
Nothing much to say........Dont know how my future will be whether all will be scared o fme.........Whether this Society will acept me............
I am praying to god the list of things that I must not do......................Sorry to all those people whom I have hurted........GOD is EVERY WHERE so only got punishment now itself